Late night scrolling on that young tinder in the nice hot summer of 2015. I just moved back from New Orleans to Los Angeles so I mean I'm lonely. Dating life has been quite silent for some time so I decided to see what this whole fuss of tinder was all about. I created my profile, of course picked the best of the best pictures of myself at the time, literally went all out on the bio saying God knows what. So once it was activated a bitch began to swipe. A couple of hours in and yes I said A COUPLE OF HOURS IN a bitch had some matches. Some were cute some were average looking but all conversations were DRY honey I mean DRY! So I went back to swiping my life away and ran across this cutie named "the one". I immediately  clicked on the heart and when that "its a match" message popped up my heart fucking sank to my fucking vagina. I mean I was excited, nervous, shocked, I even went back to see if I was trippin and to see if it was the same guy I thought was cute. Well let me tell y'all it 👏 was👏 him👏! I don't remember who hit who up first buttttt we hit it offff!! like we was messaging each other back and forth for like hours. He had me laughing, he had me engaged, I mean I was staring at the screen each second waiting for his response. I was in love. I know I know y'all probably like how in the hell but I mean I am a sucker for some good convo. I do remember it was a Thursday that we matched because I invited him to an event the next day and I was off of work. He was down to come through and we even exchanged numbers. We sorta texted but eventually said our goodnights and went off to sleep.Its FRIDAY...I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WEAR!!Best believe I found something in that closet, it wasn't payday so I couldn't go buy shit. I threw on my old school Jordan jersey (the white and red bulls one) with some jeans I think and either put some moccasins or some sneakers on I can't remember. But what I do remember was that my ex-friend and I pregamed and then headed over to the bus stop. I did have a car at this time so don't do me, my car was waiting to get shipped from New Orleans and it didn't get there in time. Anyways back to the story, my friend and I caught the bus to the event and met up with more friends and decided to get more alcohol to pre game before the event actually started. We was on that $10 peach New Amsterdam Why? because it was cheap and enough for all of us to drink. Once the event actually started I got a text from him asking if I was there yet. Let the night begin and let the nerves pour in! I responded yes and asked if he was still coming. *Drum Roll* please...He was already at the event and was looking around for me!!!! I finally walk around annnnnd finally see this tall, cute, well dressed guy and I am literally dreaming right now. Like is this real? Is he actually the same person as his tinder profile. Let me tell youuuu!! HE WAS! I text him saying hey I see you and then he looks up from his phone and smiles. He walks over, I introduce him to my friends and then we walk away for alone time just to chat and look at each other. It was great, we had a lot in common, we were comfortable with each other, it just felt right.In between time we hung out a lot, talked on the phone, texted each other. Then one night I got a kiss! Wow!!!! Didn't expect it at ALL. It was low-key romantic we was parked by the beach in a Ralphs (its a supermarket in southern California) parking lot lol IDK it was probably my idea. I really wanted to make it work and be cute and spontaneous blah blah blah. I admit I was doing too much. He knew majority of my friends, I got him back into modeling, I wanted the best for him. This was indeed in a span of 5-6 months.I noticed by the fall I was the only one trying hard and I really fell hard for him. He wasn't giving me the same energy so I started to question if I was in this situationship by myself. In December 2015 was when my heart BROKE. He pretty much told me he wasn't in the space for a relationship financially blah blah blah! aka he wasn't ready for a relationship. He then continues to tell me he was talking to other girls and that the one girl he did want to be with lived far. Mind you I was willing to build with this guy and he knew that and took advantage! Sigh P.S. I guess a bitch was too ready for a relationship and ready to love someone else...