{"time":1689832850269,"blocks":[{"id":"SNGDRPIl_l","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"HEARTBREAK IS AN ADDICTION."}},{"id":"gfYbWXlxMA","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"

When I Start Now,"}},{"id":"gnvUVTBHj5","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"they will say she has come again."}},{"id":"MG0nQM8hYt","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"My Dear, Lovestruck, demanding highs and lows,"}},{"id":"s0Yh9pfzuv","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"sis and bro, no gain. "}},{"id":"qNWcR08aZP","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Let me share my journey of how I got addicted,"}},{"id":"XwjqwdEQ3D","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"pity me if you want. "}},{"id":"i56XKGWuH2","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I am my own treatment, therapy is always shifted. "}},{"id":"4FM9dHw0lH","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"It started from when I had no reason"}},{"id":"4HjGix6bl7","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"to give my name a nick to the point "}},{"id":"IJ_liZsPyV","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"where my real names became itself the nick."}},{"id":"J8FmhFIIoo","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"

Dear O, why did you follow me around "}},{"id":"6oNbCYzuCP","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"the classes of Art to Commercial then to Science"}},{"id":"RCCnZ05I1j","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"just so you could get my attention? "}},{"id":"fMfuPT8pT3","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Then you bought and brought me friends"}},{"id":"5RFQQ2eimH","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"that could care and stayed my school son. "}},{"id":"Rzl7MsLEMw","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Staying in oblivion, you tendered my mind to detention.
Rumors started flying, she wouldn’t do her classmates, "}},{"id":"0vypUQd_TF","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Have you forgotten she is the youngest in the final class?, "}},{"id":"2peJS_AmQb","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Older guys cuts not her attraction."}},{"id":"cGCUSKtA9T","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I worry about how to keep the grades up "}},{"id":"ii1HncB7Ys","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"and they see something else because I smile always,"}},{"id":"4ESqz30eZK","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"She is always fixation."}},{"id":"LvfZXlkTh6","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Sending letters,gifts,getting close"}},{"id":"Ee5DeUiH76","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"to even those you hate, love, detest."}},{"id":"zPp2BS_Cor","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"You want me. Yes, you want me."}},{"id":"lSW8RnB7lb","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"We were young, why now?"}},{"id":"EH2XmqCQ_k","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Your silence I never listened to at"}},{"id":"addZsQeaKo","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"That time said you could wait for me."}},{"id":"AYcVBFXRRZ","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"After all, you sent many letters "}},{"id":"9BmWles_97","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Through my sister, your phone"}},{"id":"QbYjz8B3dP","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"number in those papers each time"}},{"id":"6ZRNhwXrxE","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I wash it down the gutter."}},{"id":"EYSGGSYBju","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I am still sharing how I got ADDICTED."}},{"id":"aQoBTsuOs7","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"

Seminar of fate, you met me at my lowest, "}},{"id":"UNVobMXhbd","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"your senior is now in your level."}},{"id":"ZeFtj003ci","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"We are about to sit together for J.A.M.B."}},{"id":"viIi_jq6If","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Quietly, still with my smiles, "}},{"id":"XabRwDRzRj","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"exchanged numbers with you."}},{"id":"lP97gIXblN","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I still didn’t know why we came together"}},{"id":"Sc4nHZPTiJ","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"but I decided to climb."}},{"id":"9YrXudl4tk","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"The pace, the steadiness, "}},{"id":"ESAqnn6OA4","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"the way you could not keep calm or "}},{"id":"7NXRWImSAW","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"should I say keep your cool?"}},{"id":"-EiXpwkHyg","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"like will you never get another chance? Calm down."}},{"id":"nkztvIJNye","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"She is still in front of you stretching forth her phone,"}},{"id":"ql_ySAISvr","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Few moments memories squeezing "}},{"id":"BwPULnQabI","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"off my chest yet I keep up the smile."}},{"id":"oHVUSQsYcC","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"We would call day, night, mid."}},{"id":"i2JVK_U8Lh","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":" Text how we felt, time has passed "}},{"id":"wHlcNcfEPr","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"and I now started getting secure."}},{"id":"BHhXz8Nsna","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Agh, let me not forget, my mom"}},{"id":"s-EB5oEqad","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Wanted to protect me, so she sent an invite."}},{"id":"o1pkuP57VL","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"You came, left your goons but with a tiny conviction, "}},{"id":"H3cdo0j_6t","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"you sat with her on the dining and I behind the door."}},{"id":"8ICKkzmI-c","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"She warned me to stay friends, let the future seep in"}},{"id":"n4DET4aoi-","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"But you were such a candy, adamant."}},{"id":"y2zPytSmoC","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":" How do I not let you fit in?"}},{"id":"iH_Q_lPFa6","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"It was war with my mother, "}},{"id":"2beyVQVgRX","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"her fifteen year old daughter grew before "}},{"id":"gCqSY1Od-s","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"her eyes to a young woman in love. How can she keep mute?"}},{"id":"y-u20EOks2","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"All I could see was you, never gave"}},{"id":"pTjErXuQ36","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"as much affection as you did but I loved you for you."}},{"id":"3TnWjjxBt3","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Many circumstances said to me NO, run away."}},{"id":"Sriw3EXUrn","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"It said the same to you like we shared the same ears"}},{"id":"0vC5HBWt2I","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"But we stuck, kissed,fingered"}},{"id":"ZtZjgnvDl-","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Then we had many years"}},{"id":"1N176rJ7rr","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"These years didn’t just go by without "}},{"id":"JYIieTBeSC","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"our break ups from me"}},{"id":"37bvwkTUn7","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"And make ups from you,"}},{"id":"YGmS1LYzH8","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Our souls were intertwined "}},{"id":"hbOYUAnYcu","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"You keep coming back and I keep waiting sad"}},{"id":"gnEIDcqckT","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Oh! This is not about our love life, I forgot"}},{"id":"QiDNzhv9yJ","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"It’s how to HEARTBREAK I got ADDICTED."}},{"id":"dULqzlaebR","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"

Read the texts on your phone to your cousin, your girlfriends"}},{"id":"kASchiNZfw","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"How you wished you had her back"}},{"id":"pl32i-ozKL","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I realized you just proposed "}},{"id":"gfbKaxvcJu","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"because you thought that was what I wanted."}},{"id":"LPhiEAEG3U","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I mean, I did with no Basic rushed"}},{"id":"J2Bn3WLViV","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"COVID got me spending 21 days "}},{"id":"nc2XZIUc0n","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"with your mama and papa"}},{"id":"SPts5mOkQd","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Our love was tested "}},{"id":"X6IPMVHphD","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"There, you lost it, the same me from the beginning "}},{"id":"n-Tl6v2P_X","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Started making you feel uneasy "}},{"id":"h_SwLaEuzQ","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"No wrongs or right, I still waited"}},{"id":"feQ_f-m9So","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"But the more I did, you disappointed."}},{"id":"63MGwNbVJR","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"It was not up to two months, you had a new gf"}},{"id":"7XNAmTHwQS","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"And for her, what you have always promised "}},{"id":"kTHef2Ruu6","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"me if you had the “dough”, to her you did and cared."}},{"id":"TiupJIGnPP","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Oh, I skipped the part of who took our virginities,"}},{"id":"wHgMWrRWPq","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"That memory got paused or maybe seized."}},{"id":"4LgBBB3ePN","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"In the bus, at the side of the driver, I wept bitterly."}},{"id":"sll7gA6N_5","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I knew it was the end not only literally."}},{"id":"sAJ93E3_SU","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I almost died, everyday I cried, I wanted the pain to end"}},{"id":"qaz5K9w-3v","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"There was no opening to pour the “dettol”"}},{"id":"rgPPU_BW0t","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Or is it the hydrogen?, spirit, clean it, "}},{"id":"ZL7xAOtQa7","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"bear it once and make the healing process start, "}},{"id":"RZdV6nSEai","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"i took a detour."}},{"id":"G_pLgvdHcn","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"‘Cause on me, the end kept taking a toll,"}},{"id":"yx-dBN2qOw","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I stayed a fool."}},{"id":"fKajR8gN4w","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Now, I see why my classmates "}},{"id":"FLwMfFuyCg","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"and I knew I was always in fixation."}},{"id":"R_Tn0DAyFb","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"It’s still how it is an ADDICTION I am starting to share."}},{"id":"EcMsiH1R1H","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"

Blind dates, online meets, "}},{"id":"qGN6PvA_4J","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Ego reduction, plan cancellation,"}},{"id":"bqlik2ExAz","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I choose all of these to avoid the nauseation, "}},{"id":"P_cUX40vLi","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"fixation, dissatisfaction about our end."}},{"id":"8GubJfCDgX","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I was loosing it, I met couple of them."}},{"id":"N5jsLyWEHQ","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Mr K, Mr S, writing this I am realizing"}},{"id":"VWqefae6Te","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I have to think for long to even remember"}},{"id":"9DIbj4jW1-","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"another Mr S that would not have worked but I stayed"}},{"id":"7JCjL-KB3d","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Because the singles Mr A, Mr B,"}},{"id":"CtQ26j8nGL","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Mr A.Y., Mr T and Mr S, "}},{"id":"lswq9Ys0F9","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Goodness!!!there are lot of S’s. "}},{"id":"PN5QHeW9dC","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"

Oh! My Daze!!!"}},{"id":"VwLYE_gXTM","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"One call, "}},{"id":"ZpNiZMGCw_","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"one drink, "}},{"id":"AULlR0WRwD","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"one night, "}},{"id":"rN8-LiEla9","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"one day, "}},{"id":"ZreqHty-my","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"one kiss,"}},{"id":"C5dnvtio_B","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"one shower, "}},{"id":"YIf6iWQdf5","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"one cuddle,"}},{"id":"WucNgnDbEE","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"one week,"}},{"id":"kaWXwAXlqb","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"not even one year, "}},{"id":"FPJlPGijRm","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"not even six months "}},{"id":"ZI7Za2Xl3K","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Nothing truly lasted, from the beginning "}},{"id":"xQ5DAK2JIw","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I always figured "}},{"id":"vaOTwB92eL","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"But my dear friends I ignored,"}},{"id":"n2-8R5x-hi","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I thought to give benefits of doubt."}},{"id":"yfKHLg-mPm","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"But my dear friends I ignored,I thought to give benefits of doubt.Gosh, I am helpless. I am always thinking, is he here? Could I meet him here?"}},{"id":"6gou1vyGuf","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"So I do not keep to my head and mind’s shout."}},{"id":"4ZUEU0e-on","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"I choose only one day to cry and the next day I fly."}},{"id":"lRzuinZEUt","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Because the heart seems to get used to it and still open a way for another hit hoping for a miss."}},{"id":"iT7wiN0MGu","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"The pen is dropping "}},{"id":"jdjMFqVlOt","type":"paragraph","data":{"text":"Heartbreak Is An Addiction"}}],"version":"2.27.2"}