This is what my life has been since i came back to life, unsatiable hunger. I despised it, i was no better than a wild animal that hunted purely for the fun of it and the worst part of it, was that i could never stop. Once i got a taste of someone's soul, it felt like how druggies would feel getting high. I just could not stop.

It's like suddenly being possessed and i would only come to when i'm full.

One by one, bodies would drop after my hunger subsided. Alive but dead.

Their hearts still beating, the blood in their body flowing like a calm river but their souls completely gone.

But i'd rather they completely lose their lives than be living mannequins, so i pronounce them dead instead. It doesn't take the guilt away but it eases the pain in my heart, it hurts less when i feel as though i did not cause them damnation to be forever soulless in this life and the next.

This man.... whoever he was, i had dropped too many bodies this night, i didn't want to hurt anyone else.

I summoned all the strength i had and pushed him away, throwing him further back than i anticipated, he hit his back hard against  a tree but he would heal from whatever happened and i stood up and ran as fast as my legs would carry me before my hunger would take over. I needed to go somewhere without human presence this late into the night.

As much as i hated my very existence, i was grateful for speed or strength. I was stronger than your average human and it was times like this that made me especially thankful for it.

I almost took a life again tonight but tonight was also the first time i've ever controlled the hunger. I just didn't know if i could owe it to a new found strength in self control or my previous fill of souls.

With my mind still racing, i ran till i reached a cemetery.  At least, at this time, there would be no living person here and what's more, i could sympathise with those who were no longer with us. 

This is where i belonged, it's just unfortunate that i still had a life. 

Thinking depressing thoughts would get me nowhere. I just had to stay hidden in plain sight, atleast till i put my siblings six feet under and then i'll make it a mission to figure out how to leave this Earth.

I am an abomination. The world and its people already had too much going on, they don't need the chaos that is myself.

And with that, i sat by the nearest tree and forced my eyes shut.