Fear is a bane, fear blinds, fear stagnates, it cripples. Countless times I've been under it's terrible grip, like a man drowning and without hope in sight I tried wadding out of it's current. Have you ever known what to do but lack the courage to make a move because you were scared?, have you ever turned a deaf ear to a cry for help because you were scared of the outcome?

I remember while growing up I used to be very afraid of the dark, it made the hairs on my body stand on edge especially when alone, I was always looking over my shoulders especially at night, negative spirits fed through this fear to perpetuate their craftiness.

Eventually I went to the boarding school for my secondary school, here I was away from loved ones, it was those seasons where I used to have incessant visitation from those imp like devils that falls upon me anytime I sleep facing up. Oh how I suffered in their hands ( that's part of the reason I so much hate satan, and fight him like a mad man as God helps me)

At this stage I had allowed the fear to overwhelm me and because I did I was literally under it's hold. For me then that was the greatest weapon that could be used against me. In my JSS 3 I fell seriously ill and one of those days I had to stay alone in the hostel with the matron but she had to step out for a few hours to sort out some things so it meant that for that few hours I was 'home alone' in that very big hostel which was so quiet I could literally hear the sound of the breeze and flap of the hostel curtains, it was as if every sound I heard was strange including presumed footsteps I thought I heard and even though it wasn't night yet but I soon realized that my heart began pounding, my hands were sweaty and clamy. Fear once given a footing will eventually develop a foothold and a foothold will lead to a strong hold.

I could feel myself perspiring, my heartbeat accelerated and in that instant I felt like crying, screaming or even running away but I was too weak to do anything .............