Hi, I am Gold. A published author of three books (third is coming out on amazon on march this year) and I do writ articles also. I love writing frankly and it’s something that makes me love more, laugh more and think more (in a good way) because it has come to be a part of me when I started fully writing in 2021.

I could remember how filled, happy and fulfilled I felt while I wrote in 2021. The feeling was surreal and I felt it flow smoothly, it felt like I wouldn’t be able to stop because it was that good.

Writing for me is like therapy. Just like reading to me too but with writing, I’m giving you a peak of what’s on my mind and how I see things or what I want to tell you but through storytelling.

I can’t put a finger to when this started but I think it should be 2022. That year, it was supposed to be good but I feel like it was good in its own way. I couldn’t place what made me stop writing consistently, it was like I was forcing the words that were previously flowing as I typed them on my computer. It didn’t feel like I was writing because I wanted to tell you something, it felt forced and… and I just couldn’t explain it.

The feeling of satisfaction I get when I write, wasn’t there again. It wasn’t smooth but bumpy. I couldn’t even commit to writing a book fully. I thought I was slacking and made myself finish at least five books that year. It felt fulfilling but at the same time, I felt like I was missing something. Like something was missing and I didn’t know what.

Although 2022, it was just something. I remember writing a hit billionaire book in 2021 and had many online platforms reaching out to me to sign my book because the story was good but… I just don’t know.

2023, I think I managed to continue writing some books but I wasn’t as consistent as I wanted to be. The stories I wrote through out last year (although not completed), I could feel them again. Like I was gaining the feeling I lost long ago. It felt nice. I got some positive comments on a few of the books and I felt good about my writing. I also released an e-book in July then the paperback in September or so. So amazing and I felt good.

It felt like I was going back to being depressed but I prayed to GOD because I didn’t know what in the world I was doing (in 2022 and half of 2023, I was asking myself if writing actually is my calling because it didn’t look like it’s working at all. I considered dropping writing and looking for other things but that made me even sad but my mum and little sister were there to make me feel better and offer their support). GOD helped me, to be very honest and I was glad He’s someone I can turn to anytime, any day.

Its 2024 and I am remodeling myself and my package. This year, the internet said ‘No gree for anyone’ which means ‘Don’t be soft on anyone or don’t let anyone step on you again’. Correct me if I’m wrong, dear Nigerians. I know what I want and with the help of GOD, I will get it in hundred-fold.

I also pray GOD keeps more good people around me. Amen.

Thank you, guys, for reading my article and supporting me. I am not one to talk about personal issues disturbing me but I just wanted to let this one out and share with you my followers what has been going on with me and why I haven’t posted any stories.

Mind you, I have some short stories ready and would post them soon. Thanks once again and have a lovely day/night 😉.

N.B: In the middle of 2021, something bad happened to me, I could only lean on my family and a particular author at that time because I was nearly traumatized but I was able to gain myself back again. Wait a minute. Probably that was what made me feel hopeless. I don’t know but anyhow sha. I think I can forget about it like it never happened and wouldn’t tear up when I remember that day.

And, Happy New Year, cheers to many more in love, care and all things beautiful.