Beautiful thoughts filled my mind on Friday morning. I was going to walk down the aisle and finally say yes to the love of my life the following day (Saturday).
The day I anticipated finally came. It was an awesome morning, everywhere was quiet. I could only hear the birds chirp. My make-up artist was busy making my face look beautiful while my dress was getting ready. My heart was filled with joy. After my makeup was done, I wore my glamorous gown. Everything suited my skin color. My dad entered the room with tears of joy in his ears, he said to me, you will make a beautiful bride. When we got to the church, I walked down the aisle with my father holding my hands and the guests watching me. My heart kept on beating fast but I continued walking down the aisle slowly. The guests were all standing and all eyes were focused on me. My husband looked at me with all joy and a smile. I could see the love in his eyes. I knew he could not wait to put the ring on my finger and I could not wait to do the same. The joy in our eyes showed that the love we had for each other was genuine. We made our vows to each other and the priest officially announced us as husband and wife.
Our wedding night was the most beautiful night I have ever had. When we got to our hotel room, we went into the bathroom and had our shower (that was my first shower with him). After having our bath, he began touching me. Every hair on my body stood still. He made love to me so passionately. All through our lovemaking, I was moaning and also showing signs that I enjoyed every moment.
Morning came and I could not find my husband beside me. I searched the whole room but I did not see him. Coming back to the room, I saw a little piece of paper on the table and read it. In the letter, he called me a liar and a cheat. I just did not understand what he meant by that. When I was still reading the letter, my phone rang and it was him. He asked me why I was not sincere to him. I was really confused. He told me to quit the pretense already. He requested I exit the hotel room before he comes back. He did not even spare me a second to explain myself. But I did not leave because I wanted us to talk things out. I was ready to tell him the truth. When he came back, I begged him to give me listening ears while I explain myself. This was when I told him the story of my life.
First of all, I apologized for lying to him that I was still a virgin. I did that because I did not want to have a sexual relationship anymore. I wanted to be celibate till marriage. My past relationships were all sexual and I just did not want our’s to be that way because I loved him so much. I knew that once I have sex with him, I might start giving myself reasons why I cannot continue the relationship just like I did with others.
I have a high libido and I cannot control myself sometimes. These were the reasons my previous relationships failed. I had sex with them and I could not get the satisfaction I wanted, I ended the relationship. I have double-dated because of my high libido. I confided in my friend who recommended her doctor friend to me. When I started treatment was when I met Henry (my husband). I just could not bring myself to tell him the truth. I felt he will get disappointed and end the relationship. I did not want to tell him I have had sex before to prevent him from asking me for sex. Hence, I lied that I was still a virgin and would not want to have sex before marriage. Being a gentleman, he accepted and we dated for one year and got married.
Fast forward to the day I was letting the cat out of the bag. Henry was highly disappointed in me. He said to me, “You could have at least confided in me”. For God's sake, we dated for one year, you could have at least said something. Am human, and am not a saint, I could have understood. You have lied to me for one year, how can I bring myself to trust you again? I cried and asked him to forgive me. He requested we separate for a while. I pleaded and pleaded but his mind was made up. I and Henry separated.
After our separation, I found out that I was pregnant. I could not tell him to avoid complicating things. I was still contemplating and a knock came on my door. I opened the door, boom! It was Henry. He asked me if he could come in. I let him in and offered him a drink. We started talking and while we were still talking, he said to me, I have forgiven you. My countenance changed instantly. I became happy again. I let him know that we are expecting a baby. He laughed, hugged, and kissed me.